Archive | February 2015

Truth as a Sacrament

Who am I? When stripped to the core there is no proof of identity.

That sentence began my senior thesis on the existence of God. The paper, sadly, is long since gone, but one I would have enjoyed reading again all these years later. I would have liked to have gotten to know that person a little better now, understood how she thought before “the learning”.

My spiritual quest has begun again, I do know the triggering event which has nothing to do with spirituality. The narrator in me begins a new, retracing steps in a worn path, trying to find clues to an unknown question really. Do you ever see yourself in a dream? Who is the observer? Just like my mind, the narrator is orchestrating and defining events, past present and future. Who is behind the narrator?

What is truth? Truth is unmovable, I think, but elusive.

“Truth comes to an innocent mind as a blessing
and a sacrament.
Truth is a holy thing because it liberates thought
from itself and illumines the human heart
from the inside out.”

“This light that I am is no ordinary light.
It does not light up anything
or illuminate darkness.
It is a pure and formless knowingness.”

~ Adyashanti


Swimming Under Water

Hi everyone, it has been awhile.  The ghost of wandering is back and I am wrestling with him.

To reach satisfaction in all
desire its possession in nothing.
To come to possession in all
desire the possession of nothing.
To arrive at being all
desire to be nothing.
To come to the knowledge of all
desire the knowledge of nothing.
To come to the pleasure you have not
you must go by the way in which you enjoy not.
To come to the knowledge you have not
you must go by the way in which you know not.
To come to the possession you have not
you must go by the way in which you possess not.
To come by the what you are not
you must go by a way in which you are not.
When you turn toward something
you cease to cast yourself upon the all.
For to go from all to the all
you must deny yourself of all in all.
And when you come to the possession of the all
you must possess it without wanting anything.
Because if you desire to have something in all
your treasure in God is not purely your all.

~St. John of the Cross

“You don’t get full realization of the All if you want full realization of the All. Because as soon as you want it again, the seeker and grasper has been born again. You must possess it without wanting anything. This is someone speaking from mystical insight. Even if want to hold onto it you will lose it. It is the beginning of the ending of the false self. We start to realize to function from the fabric of consciousness itself. To function from the wholeness itself. Not from the place dominated by desire, want and control. And that is totally an unknown place”. ~Adyashanti

The Hundredth Anniversary of Thomas Merton’s Birth | Word on Fire

The Hundredth Anniversary of Thomas Merton’s Birth | Word on Fire.


I wanted to share something about Merton for his 100th Birthday. I have been greatly inspired and moved by his words. Father Barron does a splendid job speaking to his genius in this article.